benzrad, 华中朱子卓
朱本主子卓日美。

By: benzrad | May 12, 2017

sunshine May 2017

May 12, 2017 

firstly dreamt likely in airport lounge, I with my son in queue for aboard. then it broke for awhile to let cargo unload. its likely railway cargo, emergent quilts and pillows for distressed people in problematic situation. once the queue restored, the conductor persuaded us buying sapling on the way, instead of brought it from hometown to destiny, for former mostly more resilient. after peed and returned to bed, I dreamt with my old family, relatives. we criticized each other, we enjoyed chatters, we are family. esp my mean nephew, ie. only son of my passed eldest sister who committed suicide in her mid age decades ago, who is so mean that defied my small loan request several times. we disappointed by counterpart but stil...

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By: benzrad | February 27, 2017

Feb 27, 2017

dreamt 2 or 3 my privileged senior middle school alumni. Zhu Zehua, who's technical subjects usually score quite high, and some others long time no see. we cooperate and compete to produce rebellion weapons. we also compete intelligently. we passed my hometown dam, spring well with crowd among which we escape enemy's hunting. this week a bit sad. gay in neighbor dorm room desperate stalks me. surveillances my usage of toilet and follows to shit and leave it unflushed. the sickened soul pretends coughing for quite some time and he should dies in illness. my son's mom, the small bitch also tried her best to challenge me. they mimic my son's monthly cinema day and invited her mom to go cinema the night before my gathering day with my son. all her knowledge is outdated and poor quality but still she day by day gathering pupils at her house for tuition. one of her girl friend whose father lent me camera when my son given birth at hospital found some old photos of my son in the hospital agrees to send me those precious photos but now hold back by the bitch, son's mom, for a bargain. my son yesterday irritated me and I had to give him a lesson. we previously agreed that our new broadband was a bliss holy and we should make good usage. but on Sunday when I went to see him, he even didn't power on broadband router in his house, but just reading paper book of rephrased Chinese classic, A Dream of RED Mansions. I went mad with his ignorance. I show brutal violent threat and scorned him for near half hour in cause of his failing VPN and system update. I didn't mean hurts but remind him his work, his future indispensable with high tech including internet, while his mom and his grandma actually not equipped it, for their cheap work mainly related with primitive tools. my son show resolve when we went for lunch out and shower, even after I bought him extra fruits. on way returning to my dorm, I pray God to let it the hard time for us to defeat, to slaughter our enemies by hand and will. I beg Holy rewards us thicker after the adversity and allow us to stick out of the dark curtain and smile. in the night I felt guilty upon my son, and boring and sad for shopping online. I bought my son a spring trousers with cellphone pocket. I also ordered myself one but run out of money. so I entreated my kid brother to pay. but the contemptible man enlist my phone number into his blacklist to evade confrontation. God, let me remember the revengeful shame sinful people insult us, the glorious One. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain the eastern Asia. bring me sooner Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan for peace among our heritage, our once more glory covers half pacific ocean. grant us memories of retaliation.

Feb 16, 2017

the day before yesterday I worked overnight. then yesterday I felt inspiration in ladies fulfilled my heart. I admire them so much, and sympathetic to their pleasure seeking and concerns while none of them lives in my life in past decade. in the night I dreamt first played with kids. then among a kindergarten, I with my men with shotguns played with kids crossword puzzle. we shoot to answer. then I likely a royal captain of firearm brigade, operated them in war field where fire distance matters. after wake up I wonder the small figure in dream is Napoleon, who relentless with war fire till saw his own failure and death after challenge Russian, the iced land. I saw relentless love attempts for his concerned, esp women in his life, in prescribed relief of embrace of death against doomed premature failure. I felt dizzy after morning alarm. even breakfast in canteen is satisfying, I still trying finding nap after settle here my workload. last afternoon bankcomm clearance crew buzzed in, show their interest to interview. there is nothing new in their probation. they impotently demanded me return at once my credit debt of ¥10000 while It clearly out of possibility in my situation, in which recent 3 months steadily returning, ¥2000 paid every salary day. in the mid after found their only aim is to intimidate me, I claimed they incapable to negotiate with me, for there is nothing valuable or granting policy in their holding card, so I arbitrarily quit the conversation. my work space just resumed, I enjoyed my favorite Chinese podcasts, and Amazon prime video in the rest of the day. God dad, last Monday after my ICBC monthly credit statement revealed ¥700 left under account, I immediately renew zhone 19th domain, billingzhu.com for my 2nd son, to its longest life span, 5 years for ¥511. dad God, there is only one thing unfinished in 2016 as annual, woz's 12 domains renewal. grant us financial freedom to do the job. bring me sooner my Royal China to sustain my offspring. bring Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan, to home my new family. bring 2017 new monument for ever growing mission to revitalize eastern Asia, for the grace and persistent commitment of Chinese and Japanese for thousand years forged in Ming Dynasty under my ancestor's title, Zhu's. thx dad God, for the snowing night yesterday and this morning so quiet in sober.

Feb 10, 2017

dreamt of complicated time space pair. after 2 busy days at dorm, heat gathered in central China gradually melt. my nose ran water a lot, and shit softly, too. last night I perceived erotic dream drove by full sperms, but in fact I didn't wet last night. rather, in dream I got insight of time-space tangle. I saw a dynasty broke down and lots of strange behaviors, like soldier don't know who to obey, court women don't know how to survive in riot era. I saw my Nankai alumni went class while I drift wild. I saw when time dissolves, events in space can be floating around, losing their sequence. the result and the cause in different time location can't be replaced, otherwise there will be forecast, in time travel paradox. these days hard economy again pestered me. I only gain a much shrinked ¥3000 in 2016 as year end bonus from QRRS, my once and long time employer, comparing near ¥7000 in 2015. a policy gain, aid for poor staff, ¥1000 offered to me by labor union. I handed over to dorm canteen at once, and next day I had to borrow ¥200 again for living expense. now I have debt ¥1000 to local contacts, and my anual renewal of zhone domains yet complete. ¥2000 will do the job like a breeze. then again every month I will fight for dinning out twice a week with my son woz for gathering, and my pills will add another ¥100. in the 3rd hometown flight tour, I almost broke up with my kid brother who contempts me and cheats me into endless waiting his aid. now my salary, at its best around ¥3000, barely afford our lifestyle including credit debt penalty. but, God, how I lucky in such failing economy maintaining such a small burden of investment! and watch the grand produce of my endeavour and willful. God, dad, I see so many affirmatives in holy message. please firmly attach me onto faith of Christian. bring me sooner my Royal China to fasten the falling treasure. bring me Asoh Yukiko to put together the Empire dream and stipulation. grant me financial independence to safeguard our startup so strong online.

Jan 31, 2017

the night before yesterday I gave my son a lesson, for he too open and vulnerable upon cheap offers. this night I felt blessed when we ready to sleep. I first dreamt in art college saw many students and computers running a software likely robohelp or tin?in. its a series tools including 3d modeling, illustration, and presentation. in dream I felt glad to fetch my pastime skill and sharpen them. I felt that would more or less let me more energetic. then in my hometown village, facing neighbor village there are 2 modern office malls where once rice field. many small companies rent space there and share introduction multimedia, project management or progress report online there. I still dwelling on the robohelp and thought about app as service, or the functions of presentation. I tried hard to sync our data or put our running data into the app. the detail of program very lengthy in dream, even cross the intervene of getting up to pee. 2 days ago I finally got informed that our train ticket booked, after more than 60000 times bidding online by our travel agency, ctrip.com. so last unease resolved and we really needn't hurry, just as holy affirmed. my son once repulsive upon my teasing infant of my nephew's, a 16 month old boy, after I told him why I glad to help infant with empowering them with full heart support, he forgave me and I thankful for his considerate. his willful pal, the grandson of my 2nd elder sister, also quit hijacking my son with all flattery. I also openly talked about fault of my 2nd elder sister whose family less attractive and colder in heart, with her husband and daughter-in-law. the daughter-in-law is a slim tall woman with adorable configure and I tried to help her when she loathe to chores. I hope they don't pitfall like some of my relatives. after all, we are family from my passed grand father, God in heaven now. this is a sunny morning with clouds. hopeful it will more shiny later. God, dad, bring me sooner my Royal China to home my offspring, to guest my concerned. bring me financial independence to liberate some of my relatives trapped in wrong idea and habit. grant me adequate fund to renew our domains, the last task unfilled upon new year 2017.
 Regalbum
spring snow in Qiqihar where the center of future territory of eastern Asia stands fautless. here snow scene of QRRS Dorm.

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Tags: life, love, finance, dream, AsohYukiko, God 

By: benzrad | December 05, 2016

woz with his favorite game, PvZ: garden warfare 2, newly bought from origin store, at home.
woz with his favorite game, PvZ: garden warfare 2, newly bought from origin store, at home.

thx QRRS, this year's year end bonus arrived earlier 2 months. with the aid I timely updated my family platform game library, inc woz's origin game "PvZ:garden warware 2 deluxe", my 3 steam games I almost played through on their pirate version from web, ie. "mask of Ninja", "enemy frontline", "zombies trilogy". after these years I more and more prone to work when alone, lack suitable mood for video games. my son under my influence either drifting from pc games, just mobile games let him lingering on his android devices. sinking PRC these days concocted lots of financial laws against personal financial freedom, trying prevent civil expenditure and establishment via investment. they mean cheap, wanting, torment and starvation all times in cheating poised righteous. they esp. targeted against my cyberspace asset growth. with the timely year end bonus I renewed partially our domains ownership and vpn service. since PRC now prohibits foreign currency credit card, then the act to regret or takeback of transaction or payment already committed in 24 hour, all aiming reinforce dictative power to control my purchase overseas. even among my renewal of zhone domains, my old methods, inc Visa/Mastercard credit card and paypal, both failed. the former due my icbc credit diluted its facility to zero after debt clearance and resumed usability in the end of freezing months, esp. USD account refuses any credit expense, while depositing USD like debit as the ICBC clerk told me to do before use in situation of tightest credit limit tentative troublesome, during shrinking CNY and harsher American dollar trade monitoring. the latter failed many times strangely last month, even I changed setting to allow paypal direct conversion between USD payment and CNY. my paypal account likely under PRC surveillance, for recently it blocked my logon several times and strangely selective upon vpn usage. I called its Beijing HQ to fix login problem but never know why it as well as my icbc credit card bundled failing to pay even I have CNY deposit in account. in a word, my renewal of some zhone domains already a mirage of sudden. God, dad, I concern so much the operative of overseas purchase that I hardly feeling ease after the successful one. grant us freedom of personal finance, our investment on cyberspace. grant us 3rd flight tour hometown during crisis when my credit debt record potentially deprives us from booking airline tickets in sinking PRC's mounting insane national civil control.

But on the purchased gifts, we did gain happiness. woz cheers up for the garden warfare 2, after its previous version release impressed him and long so long after new release half year. we bought garden war 1 from humblebundle.com at discount, and since then our game base ever increasing. after switched Traditional Chinese, woz can't wait after I left in his mom, a small bitch's curse upon our gathering, and buzzed me when I on way returning my dorm, on his progress in the game. his house's internet under so smothering surveillance that I last week had to fetch his game notebook to my dorm to download our new bought games even much slower while stable, and a full work week compensates the traffic load. his ISP, China railtel an subsidiary of Chinamobile, shamelessly intervened thousand times daily and ruined his vpn severe. God, dad, we at least have our fun now, more concrete than the elapsing reality sad in sinking PRC, literally dog's prey. dad, God, lives us an even brighter 2017 and lunar spring festival reunion hometown.

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By: benzrad | August 01, 2016

I, his proud dad, noticed previously he fond of watch, even cheap e-watch his mom bought him. I envisaged that he has expectation as successful man in American movies or any TV scenes, with an valued watch. I think he wants a watch as leaving teenage, being elegant and wealthy. Then I moved by the growing kid’s dream. I searched at once online store for android smart watch. Pepple is OK but version 2 needs near ¥1000 while version 1 was transit product for me. Then I found Sony SW2 on taobao.com lists within my financial radar, around ¥500. I long time admire Japanese product and tried to ask son’s mom buying me a Toshiba chromebook in her tour Taiwan last summer but failed. This time it wouldn't fake me. Within ten minutes I decided and le...

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By: benzrad | July 13, 2016

since sinking PRC's economic free fall in March has been more than a season, my salary card token over by credit administrative authority for near 2 months. I delayed support my son's living cost and his university deposit plan, his mom's laundry fee for my weekly shower. QRRS dorm canteen operator woman at first allowed loaning me 2nd month for boarding, but lately shown despise and impatience. bankcomm clearance crew buzzed in daily urging to pay back credit deficit. but these all went unnoticed in my heat to mobilize my website for gains. I informed my hometown relatives my unbalanced situation when my salary almost freezed, they forward helping need to my kid brother who operating a small workshop in southern China and with more running cashes. but my kid brother is a stubborn and arrogant young man. he reckons my financial problem cureless and untrustworthy. we exchanged some bitter words then cut off. till QRRS dorm canteen operator urged me to return their boarding loan for runing shortage, I can barely live under loans and peace. nearby acquaintance like the canteen operator poses a rather harsher threat for my living, for dog rampant northeastern China breeds lots of hate and violence. so I visited my once workplace, QRRS enterprise culture department. the director got my mobile number after acknowledged my dangerous situation, promised informing me if his leader board, QRRS HQ, extends me a solution. but the call back never happens. I lives in silent begging meal several days in canteen who urged me 3 more times. then on Sunday Jul 10, 2016, my kid brother flash appeared on my door. he likely informed my son's mom's family, except me in his flight tour here. he brought a solution including pay back canteen loan ¥2900 immediately, pay my boarding remote from now on via his wechat, a Chinese mainstream social tool, connected with canteen operator, a debit card of his account shifting to me and cashable ¥1000/monthly. the resolution so charming all the afternoon I felt dizzy, after my kid brother asked my escort to visit my workplace and noded some of my colleagues or cadres of QRRS. he is surely ambitious with his pay power. next day I visited my son who just brought by his mom's school delegation toured neighbor province resort. I withdrawn ¥500 from my brother's card and treated my son his favorite Islamic beef after shower. returned to dorm, near dusk, my brother dropped my dorm and invited me to dine out with him. he is showy even in an alien city, which in my view reckless. and more we discussed our world view and political faith, more we dispute and repulsive each other. on taxi back his hotel, we hardly thankful even the healing resolution pack. after 2 moths' delay, I don't know if he realizes who is right when crisis aroused and proper loan in time I suggested presight, against stalemate bank penalty now mounts to near ¥900/month.

God, dad, I'm no doubt vested kingdom of China of 1109 years ahead under the Son, my title. but can't our sibling share more common views on our ancestor's land? God, dad I now saw promised salvage peacefully in position. isn't it a cause for celebration in the summer? thx, dad, God, all these beautiful sunshine and breeze among tension and relief.

here photo of his last night dinner. for he arrogantly despised cameraman, his photo seemingly slightly ugly.

my kid brother's  last night dinner in Qiqihar with a helping financial pack. for he arrogantly despised cameraman, his photo seemingly slightly ugly.

my kid brother's last night dinner in Qiqihar with a helping financial pack. for he arrogantly despised cameraman, his photo seemingly slightly ugly.

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